一封很感人又有意思的信……

我兒：寫這備忘錄給你，基於三個原則：

（一）人生福禍無常，誰也不知可以活多久，有些事情還是

早一點說好。

（二）我是你的父親，我不跟你說，沒有人會跟你說。

（三）這備忘錄記載的，都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗，可以為你的成長省回不少冤枉路。



以下，便是你在人生中要好好記住的事：



（一）對你不好的人，你不要太介懷，在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，除了我和你媽媽。至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，總有一個原因，他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。

（二）沒有人是不可代替，沒有東西是必須擁有。看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時，也應該明白，這並不是什麼大不了的事。

（三）生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受。

（四）世界上並沒有最愛這回事，愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，你的苦就會慢慢淡化。不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。

（五）雖然很多有成就的人士都沒有受過很多教育，但並不等於不用功讀書，就一定可以成功。你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器。人，可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，謹記！

（六）我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子，當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結。以後，你要坐巴士還是Benz（賓士），吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責。

（七）你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信，你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你好。你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你，如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。

（八）我買了十多二十年六合彩，還是一窮二白，連三獎也沒有中，這證明人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以，世界上並沒有免費午餐。

（九）親人只有一次的緣分，無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，也請好好珍惜共聚的時光，下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見。

你的爸爸

Growing up ain't that much fun

Recently, I have had to hand in a form which has a very big influence over my future 'well-being'. The form contains the location that I am applying for my housemenship training after graduation. Without much hesitation, I've decided that I want to be posted in either Penang island/mainland/Sg. Petani. Its not like I have a choice anyway. If not, the 3 choices would have been Penang Island x3.

To be honest, certain things are really troubling me. From the final final exam of my undergraduate programme(hopefully?), to the future work and work place. Final exams are always a headache for me, as I have not really enjoyed the things that I have been taking since I have left mathematics. Its just so very difficult for me to memorize things.(or maybe I guess I am just lazy?) Deep down, I know I have been panicking as I have just turned myself completely away from studying lately, putting my leg completely off the pedal. I have to pull myself back together and walk this last walk confidently, but it seems I need some extra motivation which have been lacking in my study.

Working in hospitals, as a doctor, seems so unlike what I've hoped for in my life. Yes, being a doctor is a sacred job. But, it is also a scary job. There can't be another job that is as delicate as handling a patient's life and death. Every decision you make counts, every second counts. One wrong move, and 'puff', your patient's gone knocking on heaven's door(or hell maybe?) Nevertheless, its not this that worries me. Instead, it is the long working hours that will threaten what I have always wanted- my freedom. I love my control of myself, my time, my activity. But then, once work starts, there's a total lack of control over my life. Sigh...

Its obviously hard to be a grown-up, but then again, its not easy growing up either....

My god!!! Don't show me your stupidity!*Quote roastme*

RTM reporter Eliani Mazlan, 26, who took the witness stand on the third day of Karpal’s sedition trial, was cross-examination by Jagdeep Singh Deo.

Jagdeep: Do you know which party is Karpal Singh from?

Eliani : I am not sure.

Karpal who was also present, could not help smiling in amusement when she said that.

_______________________________________________________________

Jagdeep: At page four, paragraph two of the video transcript, Karpal said: “In fact, I’ve stated very clearly that ‘we’ will sue the Sultan together with the new State Government as defendants if they persist. Are you sure? Karpal said he would sue the Sultan? What does it say?

Eliani: We.

Jagdeep: It is not I.

Eliani: But it could mean himself.

Jagdeep: We could mean I? Is that what you are trying to say? What was said in the transcript?

Eliani: We.

Jagdeep: So you agree that ‘we’ is not ‘I’?

Eliani: Yes.

Jagdeep: You agree that your understanding is completely a misunderstanding?

Eliani: I am not sure.

from http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/8/14/nation/20090814141647&sec=nation

The short section above was taken from the Star newspaper over Karpal Singh's sedition trial. Its just unbelievable that our news reporters are so ignorant towards our own society. How can this people report the happenings around us when they themselves don't even know who's who and what's happening? This incidence completely shows the incompetence of some of the people whom we trust to deliver the daily happenings. They don't know the obvious facts, they can't understand statements and they manipulate statements. 'I' and 'we' are replaceble? As my dear teacher once said, 'My god! Don't show me your stupidity!'

here's one other from the malaysian insider...

Utusan Malaysia reporter Mohd Nizam was the one involved this time.

Mohd Nizam was questioned earlier by the deputy public prosecutor Azlina Rasdi.

Azlina had asked Mohd Nizam to tell the court who was at the press conference as well as where it was held, before requesting the reporter read the press release provided.

She also asked him to summarize the contents to the court.

Mohd Nizam: “If the Sultan still wants to pick Zambry as mentri besar then Pakatan Rakyat government has no choice but to take legal action.”

He added that after the press conference there was a question and answer session. He told the court that a reporter asked Karpal if he would be suing the sultan.

“Karpal said yes,” Nizam said in his testimony which was later challenged by the defence.

During cross-examination, Jagdeep had asked the 38-year-old reporter: “Do you agree that his (Karpal) view on the constitution is sought after?”

Mohd Nizam: “I am not sure.”

Jagdeep: “Do you agree that he (Karpal) is known as a smart laywer?”

Mohd Nizam: “I am not sure.”

Jagdeep: “If you still do not know after eight years working then you should start doing your work properly.”

Jagdeep then proceeded to ask him if he understood the press release since it was in English.

Mohd Nizam: “I only understand it in general and not thoroughly.”

Jagdeep then asked the reporter if he agreed that what was said in the press conference was only an opinion of the constitutional crisis in Perak.

“I only report and do not give opinion,” Mohd Nizam replied.

The answer appeared to irritate Jagdeep who accused Mohd Nizam of being insincere.

Jagdeep then told Mohd Nizam to read part of the press release to the court.

Mohd Nizam: “Although the orders have been confirmed by the Sultan. If the decision is ultra vires then the decision can be adjudicated by the court.”

Jagdeep then asked Nizam to explain what ultra vires means to the court.

Nizam looking confused and replied: “To insult.”

Jagdeep then told Mohd Nizam that his misunderstanding of the word had caused chaos in the country because the word actually means “beyond the powers”.

Mohd Nizam was then asked what questions were thrown at Karpal during the press conference.

Nizam explained that reporters wanted to clarify if Karpal meant that he was going to bring the Sultan to court.

“So do you agree that Karpal did not say that he will sue?” Jagdeep asked.

“Agree,” Nizam replied.

Oh my farking gawd...can Utusan's news be trusted at all???RTM oso got reporter like tis! This calls for a SCREENING man...Ignorance is just not allowed in the news sector, stupidity is even worst! Roastme pls roast them!!!

*Forgive my language...this ignorant bastards really annoys me to the spine...

Another adventure

Later today, I will be off to Besut for my district posting. Should be something quite fun to look forward to. Apart from some personel problems, its expected to be a busy yet interesting times ahead. A trip to Pulau Perhentian seems to be on the books but not really sure will it be carried out. Its been quite a long time since I have gone travelling away from the comforts of my home in Pg or away from my campus. It's said that there will be an excellent connection at the hostels at the district hospital. Wonder if that's true... Gonna use it to the maximum if able XD But then again, with my hardisc 6 feet under, I wonder if I can stock enought movie for the rest of my final year. haha.

H1N1 has been really rampant lately. People are starting to die here and there. Numbers increasing everyday very significantly. However, certain measures carried out seems pretty controversial. With the current handling of the problem by our ministry of health, its kinda hard to see this danger resolve. Our campus has even decided to meet all of us in the Dewan Utama at 9am later. Heard its for a talk on H1N1. Wonder if the decision to gather the whole population of the campus wise considering that there are outbreaks in the campus lately. I somehow feel pretty certain that this move will just escalate the matter and cause our campus to temporary shut down in the very very near future. Maybe then I can have my holiday...XD

Although annoyed by certain individuals lately, i feel kinda comfortable in the condition i am in currently. Life is very enjoyable now with the amount of workload and play in a just nice condition. Too bad all this isn't gonna last. In 10 months, all this will be gone. Studies will end, friends will be leaving to pursuit each other's career. Thinking about it really makes the heart feel kinda soury. Time moves really fast, too fast to me to appreciate every thing that I have or had...

Unpredictable ending

Haiz...People say life is terribly unpredictable. Any life can be taken away at any moment. Any effort can be written off any time. Anything can be twisted in any possible way. 1 month, it isn't long enough to build a career, but it sure is enough to build certain things....end of story?or more to come?

Curious

Sometimes I wonder, if given a choice, would you choose a person who loves you more or a person whom you love more to be your spouse? and why?

Food food food...

As I have come to learn, Penang is really a heaven for food lovers, especially when I came back to USM. Had a few food trips during the holiday including a buffet session at the hotel beside one-stop(forgot the name zzz...) and also the buffet at redbox during Kid's birthday. But the trip to tonki bento seems to be one of the best...This is the outlook of the shop. Its just a regular house-turned-shop from the outside. Its located in Pulau Tikus by the way and NO, there isn't a lot of rats there!

This is the what we can see in the entrance. On the left on the entrance, there are some decorations like the japanese style clothes and some plants and drawings. On the right, there is the counter and also a small manga booth which is quickly ransacked by Meeku, Panda and lengzai Kid(seriously, there is proof- http://panda-chama.blogspot.com/2009/07/yam-yam-and-jerry-lee.html). lolz
While waiting for the food, meeku spent his time with the manga from the booth while Kid and Panda had a discussion on fan.hahahaha
This is the inner part of tonki. Its not a really big restaurant but the interior design is quite unique. Each of the table are divide with a divider. U'll have privacy while u dine.(especially good for those who have smudges all over the face after meals...kekeke)
This happens to be the appetizer... erm...I can only comment that its quite nice, coz i have completely no idea what it is! XD
Yay, and here comes the main dish! Oh, made me suddenly feel hungry nw pulak...>.<
The main dish consists of 2 pieces of grilled salmon, 2 pieces of orange, a small portion of teriyaki chicken, some salad and rice. All for only RM19.90! Extremely worth it i say!(dai dou lak fu...) Sweet! Weee~~~~
And here is the soft shelled crab which Meeku has treated us^^ extremely tasty! Arigatone Meeku-kun!

Thats it for the trip to tonki. Wonder when will i get back there again. Thinking about it makes me drool~~~ Better get my breakfast first!

p/s: can anyone tell me when is bon odori?

D Day

Hohoho...its finally THE DAY. Tonight, its going to be Transformer night.*drooling* All the robots and megan fox. Really can't wait for it. I think its going to be an anxious wait and I'll be pacing up and down in my living room for the rest of the day...

Autobots versus the decepticons...who will win I wonder? Nah, no nid to wonder, good always win against evil, its just a matter of how they win and the price they pay...
LOLZ

今天的心情。。。是甜甜酸酸的

今天，下午和贤智一起吃午餐，聊了好多好多，令我想起了在Matric里的点点滴滴。在那里， 有好多快乐的时候，但也有一些令人感到不太舒服的回忆。然而，实在是很怀念和朋友一起读书准备考试，一起outing到PMC，一起去买衣服，一起去lab去上课的日子。Matric时期，也应该是我最长到图书馆的一段日子。那时，一方面要和朋友讨论功课，一方面是应为沉迷于Utopia（只有图书馆由电脑可以上网）。H4里留下了好多好多。朋友也好久没见面了，不知道大家都怎样了呢?

Life as it is

Lately, my daily schedule has been quite routine. Wake up and have breakfast with dad, send him to work, then come how and on my computer(before this I had to go for elective first, but, now its done...), then have lunch with friends, either yikoko and gang or friends who I haven't meet for a long time. Then, in the afternoon, it will be purely sitting in front of computer(games or blogging). Fetch dad at 530pm then nite time, outing with Darien, Yikoko, Pong, Lulu and WJ.

I'm so used to it that I've been hoping that this will be permanent. Lolz. But, hopes and reality are so very different. In a few days time, I might be tossed back into the depths of my books back in Kubang Kerian, with a tormenting time up ahead. Sometimes I wonder, isn't life so wonderful like this? with a job from 8am to 5pm, then outing every nite for food, for pool, for bowling or just stay at home for a few games of DOTA. Rather than that, I will get a 7 days job which has extended duration of working hours, with a pay that people THINKS is high.(its just not worth the effort) Yikes, what have I gotten myself into?! This is bad.

Lolz. Nothing much I can do now. Better enjoy while I can, I have no intention of regreting what I did not do in the future. As for what I have done... ahaha. ~boh huat liao~ Have to take it in my stride. One step at a time. Maybe I will learn to enjoy work and responsibility later in life. haha. Obviously, my mind set has not mature a bit >.<
LOLz

A not so routine morning...

Today is the last day where I can actually go to the Penang GH for attachment. I had planned to go originally, in order to sooth my guilt. But, in the end, I waked up quite late and decided to just send my dad to work and come home rotting in from of my computer. Rather than went to the usual spot for breakfast, today, I went to SS for breakfast. On the way home, I was listening to FLY FM. I am not sure why, but an answer seemed to have made me extremely excited. Palpitation ensued. I stopped by the road side and picked up my handphone...and called the radio station, only to have an anticlimatic ending... 'tu tu tu tu' was the only sound I heard. Well, its just my first attempt on calling the radio station. Maybe better luck on Monday, since the prize money is so nearly 20k in cash. So damn tempting. The idea of winning that enormous prize money just seemed to light up the day...

Moving on

Weeeeee.... My elective posting is officially over! From today onwards, its a true blue holiday. woohoo!! But... for 1 week only, then have to go back to KB already...OMG! Why?!!!!

The new semester is going to start real soon. Normally, after such a long holiday, I would be extremely excited to see the beginning of the new semester. But this time, the holiday is too enjoyable that I hope it doesn't end... The weekly pool session, bowling, yam cha(especially cendui!!!), dota, ROSE, movie days and the apartment stay. Its considered a quite eventful holiday for me even though I did not leave Penang too much. (just the once to Kampar...lolz) Its so nice to spend all the times with a whole gang of friends! Really will terribly, extremely, unbelivably, infinitely miss u guys when i go back! T_T

Returning to campus will mean that I have 9 more months left before my Professional exams in April. Its really nothing to be anticipated. The only good thing is that, it means I'm gonna be out of KB after 10 more months. Weeeeeee....

Science and religion

Science and religion, this are 2 totally different elements of life. People around us, sometimes are quite extreme over these issues. Some think that religion should be our guide in life, helping us to decide what can and can't we do. Some think that religion irrelevant and science is the only thing what is important in these modern days, thus giving birth to the free thinkers.

In my opinion, all religions have one common goal, which is to guide us in the way of our living and to teach us how to be a good person. In truth, everyone thinks that being a good person is very important. However, what kind of a person is a 'good person'? A man with passion in everything he does? A man who donates every cents that he has ever earn for a better world? A man who sacrifice himself for an evil deed for the greater good? There is no real guidance on this issues. However, from the religion's teachings, I believe that there are teachings touching on these topics. Furthermore, most of the religions originated from a person, who are thought to holy and has all the good moral values and has made sacrifices. Also, I think that religion only came about when science was not that advance then, as a lot of phenomena which were not explained by science were largely credited to religion.

Being a person who is passionate to his/her religion is not a bad thing. Nevertheless, total devotion to God is still a very questionable act to me. I do not quite understand why would a person want to do that yet. Extreme devotion sometimes will cause a person to be distance with their loved ones as they can't understand the reason of the actions. Sometimes, the actions are just slightly over the line.

A few days ago, there was a discussion group on issues regarding Christianity. Although I have not gone to that particular discussion, but it reminded me of my previous discussion with my mum's friend who hasn't come over for bible discussion since she went back to UK. Questions like is there God? If there is, how come he doesn't show himself? If he takes care of all his believers, why are there still Christians suffering from ill fortunes? These questions has been ask again and again, but there were never answers good enough to satisfy me. Whenever I say this, my friends will say, 'come to church with us and you might find your answers there'. I will just answer them with the answer that suits their thinking best, ' nah, maybe its not time yet for me to get my answers' LOL

Science on the other hand, feels more practical to me. People have been trying to explain every single phenomena available. From the smallest viruses to the space which is so enormous and so far 'boundaryless'. Science have time and again proven that certain teachings in the religions are not accurate, which resulted in certain disputes. But, to me, it is more relevant to us. Wonder what do you all think?

'Happy' die

http://www.medic.usm.my/undergraduate/undergraduate_file/20090609024940.pdf

weeee, the new semester timetable is out already. After checking it, I noticed that I have a total of 2 weeks holiday for next semester. And also , my senior just told me recently that during housemenship, we will be working for 7 days a week. weeeeeeeeeee, what a wonderful life....

A game called 'real life'

I believe most of us likes to play computer games, especially role playing games. This is because, in role playing games, we feel more in control and whatever we do might affect the outcome of the game. We might be a hero and save the day, we might be the most notorious villain who killed all the innocents(who would want to be that?If its you, please see a psychiatrist), we might be the dictator who conquer the whole world. The more realistic the game is, the higher chance of it becoming a top-seller. So, I want to introduce you all to a new game. The new game is our real life.

Genre: RRPG(real-life role playing game)
Publisher: Papa mama entertainments Developer: Papa Mama Entertainments

Release Date:The Day You were Born

Age: Present day

Reality Factor: Reality

Type: Action,Romance,Fiction(up to you to decide)

This is as realistic as it gets. You go to jail if you do a crime, you get rewards for doing good deeds, and you die if you are old or sick. And best of all, it goes on and on and on...for your whole life! lolz

RM1,800 stashed in beggar's panties

ALOR STAR: When state Immigration Department officers detained a Myanmar woman found begging on the streets here on Sunday, they were in for a shock.

She was found to have RM1,800 cash hidden in her bra and panties.

It is believed the woman had collected the money in a week of begging in the city.

The woman, in her 40s, was detained in a three-hour crackdown on vagrants and beggars, which started at 9am, near the popular Pekan Rabu market.

State Immigration director Zulfikar Ahmad said the woman did not have valid travel documents and did not try to flee when approached by officers because she thought they wanted to give her money.
Zulfikar said the woman was sent to Belantik Immigration detention centre in Sik.

Thirty-three illegal immigrants from Indonesia and Bangladesh were detained by the department in another operation here on Sunday night.

"We have identified several locations in the city that the illegal immigrants frequent. We will take action soon. Those detained will be sent to Belantik."


Haha...seems like even beggars are richer than I am. Everywhere we go, no matter food courts or tourist spots, as long as there are lots of people, we will definitely see beggars around. For me, everytime they ask for money i will just shake my head and walk away. Especially with those people who seems to be find and healthy and aren't disabled. I actually feel kinda disgusted with these people, not because of them being dirty or what, but its their attitude that disgusts me. Even people who are disabled try their best to be independant, to earn themselves and living. But these people, they try to gain something from doing nothing. Its kinda pityful. And after seeing this news report from the NST, I seriously thinking that there can be a course for the beggars and make it into a profession...bachelor degree of beggarary...swt

RM18700...waaaa

Today, on the way to work, heard one quiz on FLY FM. The answer worths a staggering RM18700... Imagine that. Just give one answer and weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, we have nearly 20k to spend. Gonna spend my whole weekend to find it. If I cn't find it, i will die trying...>.<
The question is, what does Malaysia have the 3rd highest number of? Get the answer and get the 20k plz...its stuck there for quite sometime already.haha

无奈

无奈，是一个很可怕的感觉。
它可以让你感到无助，绝望。。。
对于自己的犹豫，
对于自己的无能，
感到很无奈。
有时，会想要暂时消失，
让自己静下来,
不要再想了.
不开心的,
不喜欢做的,
都远远的抛出去,
离开我的视线.
但,生活有岂有让我这样放肆的余地呢?
努力吧!
现在还早，
不是放弃的时候。
咬紧牙根的走下去，
希望明天会更好，
把一切的无奈，
都埋在深深的洞里，
让它慢慢的消失。。。

Swt...

seeing this photo made me realise a few things...
1. 2nd year and 3rd year was the best year in USM.
2.I used to be better looking.....>.<
3.Now I am damn FAT @@
Swt.......lll=.=

Sick...

OMG, finally, after excessive periods of play and very little rest, I am SICK!!!
Now have to deal with running nose, headache and maybe a pending fever. >.<
Haha. Wonder if i wana go to the elective tmr. Its getting closer and closer to the new semester already. Still not sure if I will b going back to campus early or not. Really feel sien thinking about it.